Chapter 081 is not around

  "Zhan Ge," Xue Lengyu said: "Even if you are now being pointed at by thousands of people, I still don't believe you would be a bad person."

  Xue Lengyu's tone was firm and resolute, without a hint of doubt.

  Even if people change, even if Xuan Fengyong loses his memory, Xue Lengyu absolutely doesn't believe that a person's inherent nature can have such a huge difference. If Xuan Fengyong had hidden this from her and she found out herself, perhaps she could understand the difficulties he faced in speaking out, but it wouldn't be as moving as it is now.

  To show one's most vulnerable side in front of someone you admire requires great courage and a very open-minded heart.

  Zhan Feng smiled and said: "I also hope so, I can be as you say."

  Who would want to be a bad person, but looking at the scars on his body, shocking and frightening, how can Zhan Fengsong not feel uneasy in his heart.

  Xue Lengyu couldn't help but crack jokes and change the subject, saying some other things to ease Zhan Fengsong's emotions. She was originally eloquent, and what she said were all fresh things that Zhan Fengsong had never heard of before. A few sentences later, he was already distracted from his past life.

  Xue Lengyu, although having no outdoor experience, had read "10 Million Whys for Primary School Students" since childhood, and her knowledge was far richer than that of women in this era. The two picked many fruits, chatting and laughing as they walked back, without mentioning past events, feeling an unprecedented sense of relaxation and freedom.

  Xue Lengyu came to this world, the men she knew were just a few. Li Mu and Li Yan didn't count, Murong Haoran seemed to have unfinished old feelings for her, but such an arrogant man was someone Xue Lengyu tried to avoid. Shu Li Wenrou was still somewhat pleasing to the eye at times, but the shadows of that night lingered faintly, not dispersing. Moreover, perhaps it was because they were acquainted through the Wang Manor, with a natural hierarchy between them, Xue Lengyu found herself unable to let go of the feeling that she was always slightly cold and distant towards him.

  The man standing in front of him, no matter what the past was like, is always gentle and kind, and with himself, it's also on the same level, and when talking, it's even more tacit.

  Xue Lengyu's gentle smile was not just a comforting gesture, but a genuine expression of her feelings, and her heart was filled with warmth and tenderness.

  Returned to the village, a fork in the road, each going their separate ways to the left and right would have to part ways. Xue Lengyu reached out to take the basket from Zhan Fengsong's hand: "I'm going back, Brother Zhan, thanks for today."

  "But I'll see you off."

  "It's enough." Xue Lengyu also felt that there was still something left unsaid, but he knew he had to control himself. He smiled and said: "Hurry back now, you haven't slept for a whole day and night, do you think you're made of iron?"

  Xue Lengyu refused, and Zhan Fengsong didn't force her either. He just said, "Then you be careful yourself."

  "Got it." Xue Lengyu smiled and pushed Zhan Fengsong away.

  In comparison, this majestic big man is more like a shy young boy in his first love, somewhat urgent and eager, yet afraid that his rashness will backfire.

  Farewell to Zhan Feng's song, Xue Lengyu walked back and forth with a basket, thinking of the deep and shallow scars on his body, the smile on his face gradually faded.

  It's not true to say that she doesn't care about Xian Fengsong's past. Originally, she hadn't thought much about it, but today, seeing those scars, Xian Fengsong's past was clearly laid out before her eyes. Without mentioning what he did in the past, a man in his twenties should already have a wife and children by now; if he came from a good family, maybe even concubines too.

  If Xiang Feng spent his whole life unable to recall past events, and no one who knew him discovered the truth, then so be it. Such a calm and comfortable life would also be a desirable existence. But what if three or five years later, his beautiful wife and concubines came knocking on his door, bringing with them several adorable children?

  Others are the original partner, others are the first wife. Even if they can tolerate themselves, how can they tolerate several people sharing one husband? Even if Xing Feng's memory doesn't recover, she won't leave herself behind. Destroying someone else's family, how will you be at peace for the rest of your life?

  Xue Lengyu thought of several possibilities, feeling annoyed and shook his head to shake off the chaotic thoughts, but couldn't help but laugh at himself. Was he thinking too far ahead? The eight characters hadn't even appeared yet, and he was already thinking of the worst outcome.

  However, within a few hundred meters of distance, he returned home and saw his father sitting in the courtyard, facing the main gate. In front of his father, there was also a figure wearing a purple shirt, with a chessboard between them. His mother smiled and moved a small chair to sit beside his father. Beside the man in purple, Xiao An stood with her hands hanging down.

  Xue Lengyu pushed open the door and walked in, everyone turned around at the same time, that purple shirt was actually Shu Li.

  Xue Lengyu was taken aback: "How did you get here?"

  Xue Fu spoke first: "Leng Yu, why are you speaking to Shu Gongzi like that?"

  "Dad, how are you up?" Xue Lengyu quickly walked to Xue's father's side. It was seen that although Xue's father still had white gauze wrapped around his head and knees, he was in good spirits. These past few days when they returned home were all rushed, and Xue's father was mostly sleeping, so there wasn't a chance to exchange words.

  "I'm fine." Mr. Xue said: "It's just a minor injury, it doesn't matter. Lie in bed for two days and come out to get some fresh air."

  Looking at Xue's father, he indeed didn't seem to be seriously injured. Xue Lengyu looked at Shu Li in surprise: "Why have you come again?"

  Isn't it just morning when you left? Just a few hours have passed and you've changed your clothes, what's going on?

  Xue Lengyu saw herself and didn't show any surprise, but there was a slight displeasure in her heart. She still smiled: "Didn't expect to see me?"

  Xue Lengyu hastily said: "It's not that, it's just strange. I always feel like you should be very busy, how do you have so much free time."

  Xiao An interrupted: "Shu Daren has been here for more than half a day, and since Miss Xue is not around, he's been playing chess with Uncle Xue. Waiting for the young lady."

  It's really condescending. You have a lot of free time, don't you? Seeing how low-key Shi Li is being, Xue Lengyu couldn't show any signs of unwelcome: "Is there something going on?"

  "It's okay, I guess." Xuli thought for a moment and said: "Do you have time?"

  Even if there was something, Xue Lengyu didn't say anything and brought up the basket in her hand, saying: "Mother, this is what Uncle Zhang asked me to bring back, he said it's a thank you for your pastries."

  Xue's father chuckled and said: "Old Zhan is really polite, how are you two old folks doing?"

  "Zhan's mother, I haven't seen her." Xue Lengyu said: "However, Zhan's uncle's body looks fine. Don't worry, Zhan will take good care of them, he is such a meticulous person."

  Xue's mother smiled and said: "Yes, Xiao Zhan is a good kid, kind-hearted and enthusiastic..."

  Xue's mother said half of it and stopped awkwardly.

  She only then remembered that Shu Li was still standing beside her. Even if she was a woman who had no experience, but the big official of the Wang Fu would often come to their home for no reason and be so friendly and talkative, it could be seen that he had intentions towards her daughter. Regardless of whether the parents agreed or not, they shouldn't praise another man in front of Shu Li.

  She had seen Xuan Feng's exhibition once, and in her heart, she had secretly admired him. A villager from the mountains, yet he was such an outstanding man. But now, hearing Mrs. Xue praise him, she felt a slight discomfort in her heart. Not knowing what to say, she said: "Auntie Xue, I have some things to discuss with Leng Yu, would it be convenient for me to go out with him?"

  He knew that Mrs. Xue would not be able to oppose it, but was just going through the motions out of politeness.

  Xue Mu said, "Of course you can. Leng Yu, why don't you go out with Shu Gongzi for a walk?"

  Shu Li said: "We may be back a bit later, Leng Yu and I will be together, there won't be any danger."

  Xue Lengyu rolled her eyes and carried the basket into the kitchen, knowing that Xiaotao was busy inside, planning to let her wash and peel the fruit before plating it.

  But then Madam Xue said from inside the courtyard, "With Master Shu here to keep you company, I can rest assured. As for household matters, Xia An and Xiao Tao are managing them well, so don't worry about us."

  Xue Lengyu sighed inwardly, even if Xue Father and Xue Mother wouldn't sell themselves for anything, after all they were ordinary people of this era with a strong sense of class consciousness. Seeing Shu Li Xin's flustered heart was also understandable.

  Xiao Tao was busy in the kitchen making dinner when she saw Xue Leng Yu and hastily greeted him: "Miss Xue."

  "Alright." Xue Lengyu put down the basket: "There's some fruit inside, after dinner half an hour later, wash it and take it to give to Father and Mother. Shu Li doesn't know what he wants me for, I might come back late tonight, you all rest early, then there's no need to wait for me."

  "Yes." said Xiaotao.

  Xue Lengyu put down the basket and was about to go out, when Xiao Tao hesitated for a moment, then plucked up her courage and called out: "Miss Xue."

  "Anything wrong?" Xue Lengyu stopped in her tracks.

  Xiao Tao somewhat evasively avoided Xue Leng Yu's gaze: "Miss Xue, I...I have some words that I don't know whether to say or not."

  Xue Lengyu said: "If there's anything you want to say, just say it. It doesn't matter if you say something wrong here."

  Xiao Tao said: "Xue Niang, I think this is not good."

  Xue Lengyu was taken aback: "What's wrong with me? How am I not good?"

  Xiao Tao said: "Xue Niang, you're being with Shu Daren on one hand and Zhan Gongzi on the other... isn't that a bit..."

  Xue Lengyu's eyebrows furrowed: "Xiao Tao, what do you mean by saying I'm on one hand with Shu Gong and on the other hand with Zhan Gongzi? Speak clearly to me."

  Xiao Tao hastily said, "Miss Xue, you should know how Shu Gong treats you. He has never treated any woman like this before. Even if you're not by his side now, you should still be dignified and not casually go out with other men. It's not quite proper."

  Xue Lengyu looked up and down at Xiaotao, a suppressed anger on his face, and said unpleasantly after a while: "Did Shu Li tell you what relationship I have with him?"

  Xiao Tao thought for a moment and said, "Shu Gongzi said that Xue Niang is his friend."

  Xue Lengyu asked again: "Then did he say what you came here for?"

  "I'm here to serve Miss Xue." Xiaotao lowered her head, sensing Xuelengyu's displeasure.

  Xue Lengyu's face sank: "So you know too. Firstly, I am not a woman of the Shu Li clan and do not even have the freedom to make friends with whomever I want. Secondly, you two are not here on behalf of the Shu Li clan to watch over me, I merely hired two people to do some household chores for money. If you feel humiliated, you can leave immediately, I will absolutely not say a single bad word about you in front of Shu Li."

  Xue Lengyu's face looked terrible, and his mood was originally not bad today. After being disturbed like this, it felt like he had been caught in the act. He couldn't help but feel extremely angry inside.

  Leaving the palace was because she felt uneasy, but now even the servants around her can point fingers at her life. How could she tolerate such things? Moreover, whether it's Shu Li or Zhang Fengsong, she still thinks it's too early to talk about romance, yet they've managed to get her into a mess, making her feel uncomfortable in her own skin.

  Xiao Tao saw Xue Leng Yu get angry, and what he said was all about her own flaws that she couldn't refute. But when they were alone, his gentle and soft demeanor made her realize that in Xue Leng Yu's heart, their relationship was far more complicated than just friends, yet not as simple as a woman who only knew how to please him under his protection.

  Xiao Tao's heart skipped a beat, and with a thud, she knelt down: "Miss Xue, please calm down. Xiao Tao won't dare again."

  "Get up," Xue Lengyu said in a bad tone, "I've said it before, my family doesn't need to kneel to anyone. You don't have to treat me like your master, but also don't treat me like the mistress of your masters."

  Xiao Tao knew. However, Xiao Tao didn't dare to be as unscrupulous as Xue Leng Yu, and lowered her voice, fearing that Shu Li would hear her.

  Out of the kitchen, Xue Lengyu's face wasn't very good. Seeing everyone, he forced a smile: "Dad, mom, then I'll go out with Shu Li for a bit, you guys eat dinner and rest early."

  "Alright, go ahead." Xue's mother hastily said: "Don't worry about us."

  Xue Father and Xue Mother were old and their hearing was poor. In the kitchen, Xue Lengyu and Xiaotao had a conversation that they naturally did not hear.

  Shu Li was a martial artist, and Xiao Tao and Xue Leng Yu's conversation wasn't intentionally kept low, so he naturally heard everything clearly. He also noticed that Xue Leng Yu seemed displeased, but since his parents were present, he couldn't say anything, so he said to Xue Leng Yu, "Let's go."

  After leaving Xue's house, neither of them spoke. Xue Lengyu was in a bad mood and didn't want to say anything, while Shu Li didn't know how to start the conversation.

  Xue Lengyu followed Shu Li's footsteps, slowly walking towards the outskirts of the village. As they walked, they were about to leave Shimochi Village when Xue Lengyu saw that Shu Li still didn't seem to have any intention of speaking up and couldn't help but ask: "What did you want me for?"

  "Is something wrong?" Xuli slowed down, looking at Xue Lengyu with a sideways glance. The sky had already darkened somewhat, the sun setting in the west, casting a thin layer of red light over the village entrance.

  Xue Lengyu also turned her head to look at Shuli: "Did you hear that?"

  In martial arts, people who practice martial arts have exceptionally good hearing and vision. So Shu Li should have heard everything.

  Extremely far from default.

  Xue Lengyu snorted: "If you're being scolded as a flirt and a two-timer, wouldn't that make you feel good?"

  Shu Li was taken aback by Xue Leng Yu's direct words and immediately laughed.

  "What are you smiling at? Aren't you angry?" Xue Lengyu scolded. This was strange, although he was the one being scolded, but judging from the tone of voice, it shouldn't be pleasant to hear either. Could it be that he knew his emotional rival was such an excellent young man, so he felt quite proud of himself?

  Shu Li smiled and said: "I'm not angry, but I just heard your mother praising Xian Feng Song, and my heart is indeed a bit uncomfortable."

  "What are you laughing at?" Xue Lengyu said: "Zhan big brother is indeed a good person, mother praised him, and it's true."

  "Although I've only met him once, I can still see it." Shu Li said: "Even if he's my competitor, I won't belittle or slander him."

  Xue Lengyu rolled her eyes, "You're laughing at this? Isn't it a bit too early to be gloating?"

  "No." Shu Li Dao said, "I'm laughing because you're angry. Normally, I see that you don't care about anything, even when Murong Haotian talks about you, you don't bat an eyelid. But just now, Xiaotao only made a few veiled remarks and you got anxious."

  Xue Lengyu was still a bit angry and pouted: "I don't remember anything about the past, what Mu Rong Haoxuan said this and that, I feel like it has nothing to do with me, so I'm not angry. But Xiaotao is different, I and you are all clean and clear, but in her eyes, it's as if we're secretly hooking up behind your back, how can I not be angry?"

  The girl's reputation is still important. However, because Xue Lengyu never thought about past events in relation to herself, she didn't feel anything.

  Xue Lengyu was anxious, but in his heart, he actually felt quite happy. From the moment they met, Xue Lengyu had given him a feeling of being too calm, even calmer than himself. Especially when it came to matters between men and women. Whether it was facing Mu Rong's humiliation, Li Muo's shallowness, or his own advances, her reactions were all too nonchalant.

  Now, Xue Lengyu finally showed a hint of emotion, although it was just a small anger, but Shu Li saw the true feelings.

  Seeing Xiu Lian's relaxed smile, Xue Leng Yu couldn't help but feel a twinge of doubt and hesitated, saying: "Hey..."

  "En?" Shu Li replied, waiting for Xue Lengyu's question.

  Xue Lengyu asked cautiously: "Is Xiao Tao... someone you arranged to monitor me?"

  It's really strange that Xue Lengyu could think this way, and he couldn't help but say: "Of course not. Lengyu, you also think too little of me."

  Even if it's remembered in the heart, such a thing is also not worth doing.

  "That's not it." Xue Lengyu said: "I don't think you're that kind of person either, but Xiaotao is your person after all. Besides, every word she says is in your favor."

  "Shu Li said calmly: 'She is from the Mu Wang Fu, naturally she would speak in favor of me. You don't need to pay attention.'"

  Xue Lengyu nodded, she still believed in what Shu Li said. In her opinion, Zhan Fengsong was unwilling to deceive her, while Shu Li was not willing to deceive her either. This man would lower himself and speak warmly, but he would never pester or bother her. As long as she gave a clear refusal, even if he was reluctant to give up, he would absolutely not entangle her.

  "I don't want to get tangled up in this boring thing anymore," Xue Lengyu said: "Right, you called me out. What's the matter?"

  Shu Li Dao: "Leng Yu, can you stay with me for one night?"

  Xue Lengyu was shocked, her eyes wide with surprise as she stared at Shu Li, stuttering: "Y-you're joking, r-right?"