I thought writing meant putting words on paper.
I am no longer sure.
Today, I sit with my notebook open. The pen rests between my fingers.
For a long time, I do not write.
The page does not feel empty. It feels patient.
People pass in front of me as they always do. Nothing unusual. Nothing dramatic.
Yet I cannot look the way I used to.
I no longer see crowds. I see pauses.
A man stops before crossing the road though the signal is green. He checks his phone, locks it, then checks it again without opening anything.
A woman adjusts the strap of her bag three times before entering a building, as if preparing herself for something inside.
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A child walks beside his mother, speaking endlessly. She nods without hearing. He keeps talking anyway.
I realize something quietly unsettling.
Most people are not waiting to be helped.
They are waiting to be understood — even if no one ever understands them.
I lower my eyes to the notebook.
For days, I thought I was writing about myself. My silence. My hesitation. My thoughts.
But every page holds someone else.
The man in the metro. The stranger who spoke to me. The child who slept against a shoulder. The women who hugged and continued walking.
They never asked to enter these pages.
Still, they remain here.
I hesitate.
Is writing a way of keeping them…or a way of taking something from them?
I do not feel like an observer today.
I feel like a keeper of moments I was not given permission to keep.
The pen touches the paper.
I write only one line.
Not a description. Not a memory.
Just a quiet promise:
I will write carefully.
I close the notebook gently this time.
Not because there is nothing to say —but because not everything I notice belongs to me.
Perhaps writing is not about expressing myself.
Perhaps it is about protecting what passes through me.
Have you ever held a moment you felt you had no right to explain?
— From Writer’s Diary
Chathurma??
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