I don't love him

  To be honest, she was satisfied with Lu Zhouyu as a man. In high school, she had already seen his thoughts on Xiaolian, and at that time, she had also expressed doubts about his motives, but six years had passed, he still had deep feelings for Xiaolian, and took such good care of her, so what reason did she have to reject him as a mother? Moreover, this man was excellent in all aspects!

  Xu Liu'ou saw the admiration in her mother's eyes for that man, and with a gloomy expression, she lowered her head and spoke.

  "Mom, but I don't love him, if it wasn't for saving Dad..."

  She suddenly felt a sour and astringent nose tip, inexplicably wronged, almost shedding tears, so she could only bite her lip tightly and stop talking. Su Xin's heart ached as he hugged her into his arms, and Xu Liuwei finally choked out a sound.

  "Mom, I have Chen Qingchu in my heart, I feel that this life will never fall in love with anyone else..."

  Chen Qingchu, Chen Qingchu, the boy she used all her strength to love, that free and easy boy, that boy with slender fingers and a bright smile. Those years spent with him can be described in one song lyric: everything was vivid and intense, with a real sense of being alive.

  She and Chen Qingchu didn't actually have a particularly tumultuous relationship, but he supported her through the most important and radiant days of her youth. How could she just forget? Moreover, the person who forced them to break up back then was now the person she was going to marry. How could she be willing, how could she not hate?

  He tightly hugged her, his heart aching with sorrow.

  "Silly girl, you mustn't be like your mother..."

  Yes, her daughter mustn't end up like her mother, spending her whole life pining for someone who will never return, unable to forget even when she knows it's hopeless.

  It's okay, she and Chen Qingchu were just a naive love affair in their youth, without blossoming or bearing fruit, there wouldn't be too many unbreakable bonds. Unlike her, who was already discussing marriage with Xu Dingbian at that time, but then left alone to pursue his career.

  She and Xu Dingbian both came from poor mountain villages, took the exam together to enter the city school, and struggled together. On the eve of their marriage, Xu Dingbian had an opportunity for promotion, but the competition was too fierce and he didn't have any background, so she painfully pushed him into the arms of another high-ranking official's family woman Fang Hui who also admired him.

  Because she couldn't face the expectations of Xu Dingbian's parents and fellow villagers, they came from a poor mountain village where it was a blessing for several generations to produce a decent official, so she endured the pain of leaving alone with her unborn child to fulfill everyone.

  Maybe if she wasn't so self-abased, so weak-willed and so altruistic from the start, maybe if she was a bit more selfish back then, now she would have a complete and healthy family with her daughter and the man she loves. Only, there aren't that many maybes.

  Xu Liu'er also felt Lian Su's sorrow, just as she was about to comfort her, but saw Lian Su suddenly gently push her away, looking towards the door. She had a bad premonition in her heart, and when she turned around, she saw the person standing outside the hospital room door. Suddenly, she felt uneasy, because from his appearance, it seemed like he had been there for a long time. So just now when she mentioned Chen Qingchu in her heart, he probably heard it too.

  He walked in with big strides as soon as he saw the two of them noticing him, a warm smile at the corner of his mouth, and greeted Lian Su naturally.

  "Auntie, you look much better today!"

  I don't know what's wrong with him, but the more he acts as if nothing is wrong, the more I feel uncomfortable all over. So I got up and said to Lian Su,

  "Mom, I'll go back and get some clean clothes for you!"

  She finished speaking and didn't wait for a response, hastily turning around to leave, but he grabbed her hand, she tried to struggle free from him but he held on even tighter, saying warmly.

  "I'll send you!"

  Lan has something on today, the remaining two updates will be at night.